Well I'll try to use this journal to..."tell" some...thing what happens to me and how do i feel...
It's quite a strange thing, im not feeling very well, but im feeling fine... sometimes im happy, but sometimes im sad, i know what i want, but im not able to reach it, i just want someone who can understand me and who wants to help me...

This journal isnt written for those few who read it, its just a "note for myself" where i can express how im feeling and how my life keeps going the same way as always...
I thought when i finished high school and started university, things would change, i could start studying what i really want and do what i wanna do... but things are not as i expected... im not studying what i want... even im not studying anything i like... im "being forced" to study something which supposely "will give me job"... but i dont want that... im not thinking about my future right now, i just wanna live my present life without worries about the future... why cant i do what i really wanna do?

I just wanna be free, i wanna have wings and start flying away from this life...there are little things wich keep me up right now, and i just wanna live for them, if it wasnt for them... i wouldnt know what i'd be doing... but i have to thank those...few things for what they mean to me...and what they do for me...

nothing more to say, im a bit down this days... hope i get better with time...

again, thank the people who read this, more thanks for the ones who write comments, and special thanks for my favourite deviant and adviser,